Immunity
Trying to plan activities to make my thursdays and fridays more productive, to make the trips down to orchard more worthwhile. I’m so glad it’s the weekend, first week of school was truly exhausting.
Took a blood test today, and … at that moment i felt like i was going to die. Lol. Normally i’m pretty nonchalant about these medical stuffshit and i’ll just take it as it is. But somehow today’s blood test made me feel so squirmy inside, and absolutely terrified. Maybe cuz i didn’t expect it. And it also hurt more than usual :(
So anyway, the verdict for my allergy test (which i did on tuesday) is out. In layman terms, i either suck it up, migrate(??? lol are you kidding me), or go on long term medication + live with the numerous side effects. Frankly the first choice is pretty manageable, after all i’ve been attempting that since i was 14, but i’m sick and tired of being “sick”. I mean it’s not a terrible ravaging disease (well in this area it is but comparatively to other illnesses like cancer and whatnot it’s obviously not) but it’s something that many people cannot understand. They can’t see it, because it’s hidden. They cannot fathom exactly how it affects me, or rather my life. Even my friends and family. Some are just really insensitive to my actions and decisions that are a result of it. Sometimes i don’t even want to bring this issue up when i can’t do something/object to something because of it, as it makes me feel really handicapped. Not a nice feeling at all.
This is also why i love the rain. Sigh, will this never get any better?
